dragontears

Hi All - I’m needing to createa  folder strictly for working out on my iPod. I need ideas for any motivational songs or just any upbeat songs that are good for working out and getting you pumped.

 Thanks in advance!

I’ve been a little stressed out since my birthday (Aug. 10th). I have been dieting and exercising for a few months now and have been losing 0 - 3 lbs a week. The 2 weeks before my birthday I noticed larger losses 5 lbs one week, 6 lbs the next and I wasn’t doing anything different. Also, for a few weeks before even that I noticed I was drinking a lot more water. It started to concern me one night when I filled up this 64 OZ cup I had with ice water, drank it all and then wanted more - all within 30 minutes. I started to look online for reasons my thirst could increse and the #1 thing that kept popping up was “diabetes”. Diabetes is really big in my family on both my mother and fathers side. My mom and dad, my older sister - both grandparents on my dads side. Had an uncle on my moms side that died while in a diabetic coma at age 41. Have many other relatives on both sides as well. - Also when I was 17 I had pancreatitis, they had to end up moving a part of my pancreas that had died when they drained a cyst from it. — Anyways, I asked my mom to bring her meter to my birthday get together the day before my birthday. When I checked my sugar it was “508″. At that time we decided to go to the ER because I have no insurance and no regular doctor. By the time we got to my moms house before going to the ER my BS was too high for her meter to read. When we got to the hospital, it was too high for their ER meters to read so they had to do bloodwork. It came back 707. They kept me in the hospital over night and with insulin and fluids were able to get my sugar down to 230 and went ahead and sent me home (fun way to spend your birthday huh? lol) — I am taking 45 units of lantus at night before bedtime, and was sent home taking 4 units novolog before each meal. The doctor at my check up recently raised it to 6 units before each meal. I still can’t get my sugar out of the 200s, except at my fasting sugar in the mornings can be anywhere from 132 - 180. I watch every thing I eat, try to walk every day and it just isn’t lowering the way it needs to. I can’t even go by the “meal plan” they give because if I eat 60 carbs at a meal, even healthy carbs it shoots my sugar 100+ pts – The doctors were surprised because of my pancreas troubles before that it hasn’t happened before now. Especially with diabetes being in my family the way it is. It’s just really frustrating that I am trying so hard to get it under control and it’s not happening. I know stress can hurt your BS too and i’m trying not to stress so much. Which is why I finally decided to just “vent”. — I am thankful for one thing though. If I hadn’t been eating right and exericising the past few months, I probably would have ended up being dead because my BS would have been much worse. 700 was already a REALLY scary number. My uncles BS was only in the 500s when he went into a diabetic coma and passed away.

Ok, I have vented. If any one knows of some tricks to lower BS, it would be helpful.

My 3 year old daughter loves to exercise with me & she also watches the biggest loser with me every week.

 Today we went walking , and I also did a richard simmons video when we got home. I checked it out from the library, I liked some of his others. It’s good as a fun little workout. Well after the video I did 150 crunches for the Easter Crunch Challenge I’m involved in. After finishing my crunches Isabella asked me “are you finished with your crunches mommy?” I said “yes baby, i’m finished with my crunches”, she then asks me “are you still fat?” I laughed and said “yep, still fat”. She looked at me and said with a lot of energy behind it “then you have to exercise!” — After this she followed me around the house with my Walk At Home DVD and kept saying “mommy, you have to do this, you have to burn those fat calories!” over and over. haha — talk about keeping me on track!

 I was happy at the library. When I first walked in I seen these steep stairs and thought “Oh, Great! - I won’t be able to catch my breathe once I get to the top” ..except being more active the past few weeks is already helping me although I haven’t lost very much weight. It didn’t bother me at all, I went up and down a few times as if it were nothing. It was a very nice feeling.

   A Few weeks ago I joined the 500lb Challenge. It is made up of 2 teams of about 10 people each. The first team to lose 500 lbs combined weight wins the Challenge. Unfortunately my team captain has been MIA for a few weeks. I desperately need the challenge because I do better saying no to un needed snacks, or motivating myself to get up and exercise when I know I have to be accountable to the team as well as myself. So, I decided to keep my team going at least until the team captain comes back.

 During this time we also seem to have a few people who have dropped out of the challenge. That brings us to this blog. I am looking to fill those places to make the teams even again. If you are interested in being a part of this challenge let me know!

I ended up disappearing from buddyslim back in early ‘07 when I became pregnant with my son. I did try to come back after I gave birth. However, It has been one thing after another, excuse after excuse keeping me from doing what I set out to do. I am currently going through a divorce, which will turn into a custody battle. It is extremely stressful. I kept telling myself before that when things are calm, I can focus on weight loss/exercise. I remembered recently how much better you felt mentally and physically when living healthier. The right foods and exerising can do a lot for your mind set. So, I’m back with more motivation than ever. The stress/depression levels are so much lower now than they were until I started exercising again. It’s amazing what a little movement can do mentally as well as physically.

As you know I found out I was pregnant shortly after beginning my weight loss journey. I had my beautiful baby boy on 10/10/07 at 9:22a. I’ve gone through a lot the last several months because around the time I found out I was pregnant my husband and I also separated. Between that, raising a toddler, being pregnant (with gestational diabetes) I’ve been dealing with a lot and the last couple of months were pretty miserable because the gestational diabetes although I ate healthy and was on insulin didn’t control my sugars, which caused my baby to be big and I had a good bit of excess amnionic fluid - very very uncomfortable. He was born 11 lbs, 15 ozs! (yes, 1 ounce short of being 12 lbs!) - 23 inches long with beautiful dark hair. He was of course born with low blood sugar due to my high blood sugar during pregnancy but all that is controlled and he’s doing well. I gained about 34 lbs during pregnancy but that seems to have been pretty much all baby and fluids. He’s 1 week, 2 days old and I am down to 3.5 lbs more than I was before I was pregnant and still losing fluid.

Anyway, I am back and excited to catch up with old buddyslim friends and make new ones!

I twisted my ankle pretty bad yesterday morning, it’s swollen and not very easy to walk on… I looked up the weather today and i’ve been WAITING for a week like this so Isabella and I can get out and go walking a  lot. This entire week is supposed to be in the 60’s - 70’s. I really hope my ankle get’s better soon, at least enough to walk some.

    Go Blue!!! Hope you guys do well today. Maybe I should have stayed on another week, I was able to get rid of 3 of those lbs just by watching that sodium. It is amazing what a little sodium can do to some pregnant women even in the beginning.

Anyhow, I still plan to keep an eye on my weight and inches during my pregnancy, will be accepting the fluid and baby weight issue later on, i’m sure. I decided to do another measurement today. i’m down 5 inches altogether since the last time I measured. That’s down 9.75 inches over all  for the last 6 weeks(only 2 weeks really exercising, and only 4 of those weeks dieting for real) not bad. I know those numbers will be going up later on because of the pregnancy but it’ll be interesting to see how my body changes along with my weight during and after my pregnancy Oh, and i’m still getting in my cardio and plan to do so as long as possible and actually plan on adding walks in to my daily exercise as well, it should start warming up here soon!

I already know i’m going to need my buddies, I already have to battle not giving in to things i’ve been craving for the last however long. It’s just so easy to use the “i’m pregnant now, I can lose it later” I don’t want to do that this time, and I know with my buddies I can stop myself from giving in to those evil foods and gaining more weight than needed during my pregnancy!

Hope everyone has a wonderful sunday and again, even if i’m not a part of the team now.. . GO BLUE!!

Just wanted to thank my buddies for encouraging me even if it were for a different reason than losing weight and exercising. You guys truly are the greatest around. I did get over the shock last night and woke up in better spirits and actually excited. I didn’t see it then but this is probably one of the best times to get pregnant again. They will be close in age and will be able to do more together growing up, our finances are better and i’m able to do call takinng from home for extra money. Yes we do need a bigger home(we are currently in a 1 bedroom townhome) but if we keep doing what we are doing then we will have another home before it’s really needed. Isabella is still pretty young and isn’t hurting for her own room, hah..We do own the townhome and that is already a big chunk to go towards a house when we save a little more.. and yes Julia she does look a bit like a fraggle I guess, haha.. I just thought it was funny that the blanket gave her static that bad, she constantly pulls it over and off of her head, after a while it just kind of happens.

Thanks again everyone

A few of you know that I’ve been struggling with gaining water weight the last couple of weeks. That hasn’t changed. I finally got curious so I looked back on my LJ. Before I found buddyslim my sisters and I were doing a thing on there together weighing in and logging what we eat. I got them on here when I found it because it’s so cool to have so many other weight loss buddies. Anyhow, I looked back to see how much weight I gained last time I was on monthly. I still lost 3 lbs. I then noticed the date, Jan. 14th. - Nick went to get a pregnancy test, the digital clear blue. Three minutes later the word clear as day “Pregnant”. Last time I took 3 and still didn’t fully accept it until I seen a doctor. How can you argue with the word “pregnant”. Well, I went ahead and sent a msg to Angela to pull me out of the red vs blue challenge. I’m still going to eat right, well even better now seeing as how I have to watch my sodium much closer from now on. I was really wanted to be able to lose a lot of weight before getting pregnant again, but evidently God has a different plan for me. I’m actually really depressed right now, so many reasons why this is a bad time. I mean I love children and wanted another baby, but maybe in about 2 years when things are different with my body, finances, and being in a bigger home. My husband is also in shock and kind of upset. With Isabella he evidently got me pregnant on purpose so I had him to help me through the depression and acceptance. Not this time..  At least I know why my body is being weird, my nose has been stuffy again and I feel tired and depressed a lot.

rn

I guess I should get off of here now, although I don’t think i’ll be going to sleep anytime soon.

rn